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Posted: Feb 3 2015, 11:22 AM
Shannon Lacey Saunders
it is madness for sheep to talk peace with a wolf
professional — emotional — good — quick-tempered — loveable
loves chocolate milk
It’s always all good until life decides to do a one-eighty turn and it was not different with you.
It wasn’t... unexpected, not really. You knew him, you knew what he was capable of but it wasn’t until you saw it happen with your own eyes that you really realised it. That day, Dominic scared you.
Sometimes, people say you’re selfish but you don’t pay much mind to it. Giving a damn about everyone else ahead of yourself had been something that you have grown out of. Throughout life, you had to help people when you were breaking at the seams and nobody was there to help you. You supposed that was the reason you started hanging out with Kathy...
In retrospect, perhaps if you’d chosen differently, your life would have gone a different route. Maybe if you focused on your studies first, you wouldn’t have ended up where you eventually did... but thinking about what if’s was for all for nothing. Kathy was a good friend, she provided you with the comfort that you never got at home and she was the one that introduced you to the new friendship group. How could you have known how events would unravel? You didn’t have a clue.
The house you were brought up in didn’t belong to the most relaxed, your mother ruling with an iron fist, expecting way too much than you thought yourself capable of. It was uncomfortable at best, with your siblings having moved out; the undivided attention of your mother was focused on you. Now, critique you could handle but after a dip in your grades there was a sudden break in that relationship... and that was the tipping point, where you decided that you wanted to take life at your own pace. Keying your mother’s car might have not been the best drunk decision in your life but god did it help.
“My name is Shannon Saunders. I’m thirteen. I have tried to keep a diary before but failed miserably, so I’m going to try again...”
The blonde girl paused in her writing and pushed a strand of hair out of her face and behind her ear. For a few moments, she listened to the silence of the house until finally she sighed and put pen to paper again.
“I’m currently not in the best state. My grades started going down and I’ve become overwhelmed with it all. It’s time to decide what my future will look like and I’m kind of... terrified.”
London was not a safe place. That was drilled into your head from birth but you supposed that once you got on the other side of things, it would be easier.
And for a good while, it was. Until that day, it was all easy and fun. Maybe not so innocent with the windows that got broken or the alcohol drunk or the drugs... but until that moment when Dominic buried a knife in Jason you were just a part of a friendship group like anyone else.
That was the culminating point though and eventually it was the court case that pushed you over the edge.
Obsession was by no means healthy, you knew it and yet you couldn’t help but be obsessed. The feelings that you stifled for way too long came rushing out in an argument with your mother, which was crowned by her taking steps to finally get you out of her hair. You spent a year trying to regain your sense of self in the hospital... there were moments when you couldn’t hold yourself together and times when you and the girls managed to sneak something past the doctors and nurses.
Apparently, scars are what makes you human... and maybe you are scarred. But you’ve learnt to live with that, made something of yourself. Changed. Grew up. Finished university with a first; became a teacher assistant. A teacher. And once you saw him again, you went back to teacher assistant, unable to keep your focus for being a teacher.
Maybe it would have all been easier if you hadn’t met him again but you did and while it didn’t send you back to your worst years, you found yourself wondering. What if he hadn’t killed Jason? What would your life be like now?
Honestly, you didn’t want to know.
alex — 20 — gmt — pm for im — isaac, noah, warrick
Posted: Mar 23 2015, 05:30 PM
poor poor shannon, what mess has she got herself into? >< i love her so much and i can't wait to see what happens when she and dominic reunite properly. we've been waiting about a year the time is now!!